I Don't Know Why Now, But Now's the Time
Posting from: Tucson, AZ
Listening to: Tom Petty, Wildflowers
After much thought over the holiday break, I decided to do something either Brilliant and Bold or Incredibly Stupid. Which it turns out to be is still to be determined. This spring I will be moving to Montana. No, I don't have a job. I may or may not get one sometime after I get there, but for a while at least I will be living off of savings and exploring other options. Not only did I decide to do this thing, but this week I hit the button on the first thing that needs to happen in order to make it come true. I submitted a request to initiate cashing out my 401K.
I don't belong at my company or anywhere in corporate America probably. I don't belong in the police state of Arizona. And I'm tired of the suffocating feeling of trying to fit in where I don't belong. So for a while at least, I'm not going to do that. Maybe I will regret it later, but I feel like I at least need to try to find my way out of that trap. Hopefully, I will be following through on some advice I once got from someone about making this the last time I work for someone else.
It's possible that I'm doing something incredibly stupid. However, I don't think it's irrepairably stupid if it is that. If I for some reason go back to the rat race, I will still have three decades of working years to make up for my folly. But if it was actually a brilliantly bold move, well, I can't wait to find out what great adventure I'm about to embark on. I hope it's that and not the incredibly stupid thing.
I have taken some time in the last few days to let some folks know what's in store for me. I missed a few who I would have liked to tell individually, but I may still have that opportunity as I don't think they read my blog regularly. In the meantime, I wanted to get this written and posted as my one little victory, and I'm not sure how much time I will have to do that tomorrow.
I'll be taking the next couple of months to get things in order- get the house fixed up and ready to sell, get eye and dental exams and whatnot, do all my car maintenance, get the car and student loans paid off, find a place to live, etc... My last day at my job will be the end of April. Then I plan to move in early May.
I'mscared terrified.
But I'm going.
Listening to: Tom Petty, Wildflowers
After much thought over the holiday break, I decided to do something either Brilliant and Bold or Incredibly Stupid. Which it turns out to be is still to be determined. This spring I will be moving to Montana. No, I don't have a job. I may or may not get one sometime after I get there, but for a while at least I will be living off of savings and exploring other options. Not only did I decide to do this thing, but this week I hit the button on the first thing that needs to happen in order to make it come true. I submitted a request to initiate cashing out my 401K.
I don't belong at my company or anywhere in corporate America probably. I don't belong in the police state of Arizona. And I'm tired of the suffocating feeling of trying to fit in where I don't belong. So for a while at least, I'm not going to do that. Maybe I will regret it later, but I feel like I at least need to try to find my way out of that trap. Hopefully, I will be following through on some advice I once got from someone about making this the last time I work for someone else.
It's possible that I'm doing something incredibly stupid. However, I don't think it's irrepairably stupid if it is that. If I for some reason go back to the rat race, I will still have three decades of working years to make up for my folly. But if it was actually a brilliantly bold move, well, I can't wait to find out what great adventure I'm about to embark on. I hope it's that and not the incredibly stupid thing.
I have taken some time in the last few days to let some folks know what's in store for me. I missed a few who I would have liked to tell individually, but I may still have that opportunity as I don't think they read my blog regularly. In the meantime, I wanted to get this written and posted as my one little victory, and I'm not sure how much time I will have to do that tomorrow.
I'll be taking the next couple of months to get things in order- get the house fixed up and ready to sell, get eye and dental exams and whatnot, do all my car maintenance, get the car and student loans paid off, find a place to live, etc... My last day at my job will be the end of April. Then I plan to move in early May.
I'm
But I'm going.
posted by Kirsten | 1/15/2008 09:04:00 PM
17 Comments:
Wow...let me be the first to say congratulations!
And know that if you need any help, you've got plenty of friends up here!
I think your making an excellent choice, it may not feel like it now, but give it some time. Enjoy the freedom.
WR
It's about time. I don't know how you put up with that hell hole as long as you did. You can always chop wood and live in a hut.
p
Good for you! I wish you all the best.
Stuff like this can be a bit scary, but once in a while you've just got to go for it!
Do I need to change your time zone dedications? I suck at Geography!
Seriously, if there's anything I can do, don't hesitate to reach out.
In my line of work I always have found that old saying "One door closes so another can open" to be absolutely true, even if you are the one closing the door in the first place.
Be well and good luck!
Mike
Good luck! I'm excited for you!
Good for you!!!
Not cut wood, P... It's "split" wood, remember?
Congratulations, and best of luck to you two, K.
So... who wants to start a pool on how long it takes K to strangle Li'l P? :)
It's gonna be fun!
Guess I should have put my name in there.
kel
While I understand the feelings of being terrified, I doubt you will regret this move.
Congratulations!!
"So... who wants to start a pool on how long it takes K to strangle Li'l P? :)"
Stop being spiteful, I gave you notice we were taking all the broads from Tribe Tucson. :P
p
Holy cow! I don't blame you for being scared terrified, but remember the wise words of Tom Petty from the very album you're listening to: "Most things I worry about never happen anway." Have fun and grow like wildflowers!
Kirsten-
When I was 21, I packed up and moved 600 miles from everything I knew to a place where I knew nobody and didn't have a job. You're moving a little farther away, but you already have some great support in Montana. I'm sure everything will work out just fine. It may take a little while to get settled and sometimes it may feel like it was a bad decision, but I'm sure everything will work out in the end.
-PK
Hey K,
I'm very excited for you. Congratulations on your decision to move. You're going to be fine in MT. You're going to be better than fine - you're going to love it. You're making the right decision for you right now.
Even if it doesn't turn out perfectly, for whatever reason, you'd always be wondering if you didn't go. And besides... it will turn out perfectly.
Best wishes, Good luck, and may FSM bless you in your travels,
Big Dubya
Congratulations! I am confident that in a year's time, you'll be happily looking back and thinking, "What was I so worried about?"
If I can be of any help, please don't hesitate to be in touch.
If you were perfect you wouldn't be afraid. But you're human, so you're not perfect.
I'm with Sunni. Looking back a year from now you'll be saying, "now that wasn't so hard!" and feel much better.
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